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Accidently logged out and had the weirdest pictorial catchpa to verify. "Identify things you peel before eating" nine pictures one with whole avocados, one with a sliced in half avacado ..which was actually tricky and seven other pictures of bottles or nails.
4th of July sales are looming. I barely noticed the solstice. I'm failing as a secular pagan. Chaos still reigns at home.
I planted beans a month ago; BEANS, big seeded beans, not a one came up.
I haven't plucked a single stalk of rhubarb. My three plants are barely alive,
After I realized all hope was gone for the beans, i gathered what flower seeds I had, a mix of sunflowers, cosmos and my pumpkin seeds. I planted and then we got 5" of rain over three or four days. If nothing shows over the next few days, then the whole back garden is a failure this year.
I have tomatoes and peppers in pots; there is lots of greenery at least. Also have gotten a few snap peas.
Then we have what counts as a heat wave here, Three days in the mid 90's; yesterday we topped out at 96; that doesn't happen much here. But the humidity is very high and though we aren't in the 100's, it is still swampy.
I planted beans a month ago; BEANS, big seeded beans, not a one came up.
I haven't plucked a single stalk of rhubarb. My three plants are barely alive,
After I realized all hope was gone for the beans, i gathered what flower seeds I had, a mix of sunflowers, cosmos and my pumpkin seeds. I planted and then we got 5" of rain over three or four days. If nothing shows over the next few days, then the whole back garden is a failure this year.
I have tomatoes and peppers in pots; there is lots of greenery at least. Also have gotten a few snap peas.
Then we have what counts as a heat wave here, Three days in the mid 90's; yesterday we topped out at 96; that doesn't happen much here. But the humidity is very high and though we aren't in the 100's, it is still swampy.
It has not been hot here. Today's high may have hit 60 and that's the warmest it's been most of the week. Saturday it reached 53 and it's been wet; a constant drizzle.
The heat has been on because Cheryl has not been well, though sitting in one spot does not make one warm.
Eye doctor tomorrow, to see if my retina has wrinkled anymore or if the secondary cataract has grown more over my replacement lens. I think it has.
I went to an Al-anon meeting, we had gone to some a year and a half ago, but this was for me. It's not my thing; you're supposed to go six weeks before you reject it. Maybe different meetings are different; this one seemed to be more about theory; read a page, discuss how it applies. I don't know.
Almost all meetings are early in the morning or in the evening when i'm at work, very few options for early afternoon. Not sure why; if you can go to a meeting at 8 AM. you can't go to a meeting at 2 PM? People work all hours anymore.
I knocked out some low hanging plaster in the living room ceiling and am trying to put a somewhat smooth replacement. As long as it doesn't fall i'll consider it a win.
I used to hear that plasterers priced themselves out of business, but that wasn't it. They were put out of work by a cheaper technology. What an art it was. Years ago i tried to plaster another bad spot on the ceiling and it was terrifying. You have to take this pudding and smoosh it in place and smooth it out and not have it just plop on the floor. Even in our basic workers cottage, there are some amazing curves.
We turn on ourselves. Plasterers wanted too much money; I heard this growing up from other working class folk; whose turn woulld come in time.
The heat has been on because Cheryl has not been well, though sitting in one spot does not make one warm.
Eye doctor tomorrow, to see if my retina has wrinkled anymore or if the secondary cataract has grown more over my replacement lens. I think it has.
I went to an Al-anon meeting, we had gone to some a year and a half ago, but this was for me. It's not my thing; you're supposed to go six weeks before you reject it. Maybe different meetings are different; this one seemed to be more about theory; read a page, discuss how it applies. I don't know.
Almost all meetings are early in the morning or in the evening when i'm at work, very few options for early afternoon. Not sure why; if you can go to a meeting at 8 AM. you can't go to a meeting at 2 PM? People work all hours anymore.
I knocked out some low hanging plaster in the living room ceiling and am trying to put a somewhat smooth replacement. As long as it doesn't fall i'll consider it a win.
I used to hear that plasterers priced themselves out of business, but that wasn't it. They were put out of work by a cheaper technology. What an art it was. Years ago i tried to plaster another bad spot on the ceiling and it was terrifying. You have to take this pudding and smoosh it in place and smooth it out and not have it just plop on the floor. Even in our basic workers cottage, there are some amazing curves.
We turn on ourselves. Plasterers wanted too much money; I heard this growing up from other working class folk; whose turn woulld come in time.
And she checked herself out of rehab.
Am I supposed to watch this or am I supposed to divorce myself from reality?
Am I supposed to watch this or am I supposed to divorce myself from reality?
This week has seemed like three.
Turns out for the first week, she occasional, supervised phone access (10 min). We spoke twice for about two or three minutes. She also wanted to call Andrew.
As of Saturday she gets 30 minutes a day to her phone. She fired off a positive sounding text. But she also told Andrew she only wants to stay only 30 days. 30 days isn't enough, but, maybe she'll change her mind as she sees with a clearer head how much trouble she's in. She knows how much trouble she's in, but then she doesn't.
Turns out for the first week, she occasional, supervised phone access (10 min). We spoke twice for about two or three minutes. She also wanted to call Andrew.
As of Saturday she gets 30 minutes a day to her phone. She fired off a positive sounding text. But she also told Andrew she only wants to stay only 30 days. 30 days isn't enough, but, maybe she'll change her mind as she sees with a clearer head how much trouble she's in. She knows how much trouble she's in, but then she doesn't.
She did it, she went into rehab. I am......i don't know, I don't think I'm allowing myself, or i just don't have, Hope. She won't be able to contact anyone for a week, if i have the details right. The son-in-law called us and told us about it. My baby girl and I am powerless.
I come home at 2 AM and it's 16 degrees; i feel the wind blowing across the snowy landscape and say to myself "It feels warmer. Indeed, it is. At 16, it is about 25 degrees warmer than at this time yesterday.
It got cold. Over three days we got about 9", a couple miles to the south, there was 12.
I did finally Finnish "Always Coming Home".
Sedona has been living on her own for a month, maybe more. He left, though he is still helping some financially, but we really don't know. she doesn't lie but becomes evasive. She had another job and lost or left it...evasive. We just try to stay in touch and wait for another shoe to drop.
Kathleen married Bob a couple weeks ago; I choose not to go to the ceremony. I can't send her a card for the holidays; only because i can't/won't send Bob a card. It's crossing a line somewhere; i'm not sending anyone else at work a card.
I had a procedure on the varicose veins on the right leg last week; very easy stuff. In the morning I'm going to have the left leg worked on, this is actual surgery and could take up to three hours; so that's fun.
My time with my therapist is winding down; I have two more sessions that are covered by insurance. After the first of the year it's back on me and i'll need to drop it to maybe every three weeks or a month. I'm going to miss talking to someone sane; we have somewhat of a natural rapport and that's hard to find.
EDIT: Spent almost 6 hours on the operating table while bit by bit, small pieces of vein were wrenched from my legs - while awake. They can only use a certain amount of Lidocaine in one day, so i have another session scheduled the 26th, Still covered under by my insurance.
Sedona has been living on her own for a month, maybe more. He left, though he is still helping some financially, but we really don't know. she doesn't lie but becomes evasive. She had another job and lost or left it...evasive. We just try to stay in touch and wait for another shoe to drop.
Kathleen married Bob a couple weeks ago; I choose not to go to the ceremony. I can't send her a card for the holidays; only because i can't/won't send Bob a card. It's crossing a line somewhere; i'm not sending anyone else at work a card.
I had a procedure on the varicose veins on the right leg last week; very easy stuff. In the morning I'm going to have the left leg worked on, this is actual surgery and could take up to three hours; so that's fun.
My time with my therapist is winding down; I have two more sessions that are covered by insurance. After the first of the year it's back on me and i'll need to drop it to maybe every three weeks or a month. I'm going to miss talking to someone sane; we have somewhat of a natural rapport and that's hard to find.
EDIT: Spent almost 6 hours on the operating table while bit by bit, small pieces of vein were wrenched from my legs - while awake. They can only use a certain amount of Lidocaine in one day, so i have another session scheduled the 26th, Still covered under by my insurance.
Suddenly it's Fall, temperatures at night are dipping into the 40's.
I am struggling with Le guin's Always Coming Home. I knew the book was sort of a concept/experiment; an anthropological textbook for a civilization that did not yet exist. I was younger and more willing to accept the idea, but now it's..I don't know. It didn't work when I first read it; now I wonder why she didn't create the narrative by making a collection of short stories on the subject. She wrote many anthologies of short stories; she could have made the volume as a whole concept.
I am struggling with Le guin's Always Coming Home. I knew the book was sort of a concept/experiment; an anthropological textbook for a civilization that did not yet exist. I was younger and more willing to accept the idea, but now it's..I don't know. It didn't work when I first read it; now I wonder why she didn't create the narrative by making a collection of short stories on the subject. She wrote many anthologies of short stories; she could have made the volume as a whole concept.
https://youtube.com/shorts/UIIUk3UaxG8?si=da1dODC8HSDQD9YS
i first saw pictures and i didn't believe it, but you can't deny this.
i first saw pictures and i didn't believe it, but you can't deny this.
https://youtu.be/mEcN1gPT8oE?si=qnhjWe5bkDjsfpzk
But, this is deceptive, it looks too easy. The next video shows what it looks like from above. It's a different ship; this turn takes place at about 58 seconds on the first video.
https://youtu.be/1ePrRO9hQa0?si=znqK6ejYkWHt-U1k
But, this is deceptive, it looks too easy. The next video shows what it looks like from above. It's a different ship; this turn takes place at about 58 seconds on the first video.
https://youtu.be/1ePrRO9hQa0?si=znqK6ejYkWHt-U1k
We have rain! For the first time in two weeks; that may not seem like much of a stretch in some places, but here it's dry. The news said we're over 7" short for the year. It's been raining several hours, slow and steady; like in the movies. I still have a few tomatoes and three pumpkins; the vine that carries the largest is dying, though it is starting to ripen and there's always the fear of a deer attack.
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My answer is more about how everything is around me.
My daughter is teaching in her new school and really feels at home there, the way she hasn't since she moved to Delaware. This is a private school outside Columbus and it is lightyears more open minded than where she was. Delaware fancies itself as a liberal exurb, but open minded in rural Ohio is not what it is in N.E. Ohio. There was a school she interviewed at last year that she was asked "What kind of pupils did you teach in Cleveland? Where were they from; the sum of it was that my very white daughter was tainted because of who she had taught before. Anyway things seem to be good, but we don't know for sure. She is not in therapy and I have warned her that bad days and disappointments will come and if she isn't in something AA? She won't be ready for it.
My son and his fiancée seem to be doing good. So, not much to say there.
My therapist moved across town, so now i have to drive more than three minutes i was doing. I think she feels my social anxiety is at the root of my problems and wants to work on this..this could get difficult.
Kathleen and I went for a walk in the park a couple weeks ago. Then she worked with me a couple hours and i brought in a loaf of bread for her.
Later in the week she told me she made a sandwich for Bob, with my bread and i was devested. At best, it's silly, but it felt like a slap in the face; I haven't communicated with her since.
The marriage seems one step forward, one step back.
I feel like i just react to everything, but maybe that's what we all do.
My daughter is teaching in her new school and really feels at home there, the way she hasn't since she moved to Delaware. This is a private school outside Columbus and it is lightyears more open minded than where she was. Delaware fancies itself as a liberal exurb, but open minded in rural Ohio is not what it is in N.E. Ohio. There was a school she interviewed at last year that she was asked "What kind of pupils did you teach in Cleveland? Where were they from; the sum of it was that my very white daughter was tainted because of who she had taught before. Anyway things seem to be good, but we don't know for sure. She is not in therapy and I have warned her that bad days and disappointments will come and if she isn't in something AA? She won't be ready for it.
My son and his fiancée seem to be doing good. So, not much to say there.
My therapist moved across town, so now i have to drive more than three minutes i was doing. I think she feels my social anxiety is at the root of my problems and wants to work on this..this could get difficult.
Kathleen and I went for a walk in the park a couple weeks ago. Then she worked with me a couple hours and i brought in a loaf of bread for her.
Later in the week she told me she made a sandwich for Bob, with my bread and i was devested. At best, it's silly, but it felt like a slap in the face; I haven't communicated with her since.
The marriage seems one step forward, one step back.
I feel like i just react to everything, but maybe that's what we all do.
I have beat captcha and the microsoft thing into submission! Microsoft doesn't even show it's face anymore and the captcha is there but i just click login. I am a human!
Now i just bypass the catchpa? Log in and X out the microsoft thing several times. Uselessly annoying.
Bad storms yesterday afternoon: the 20 ft top of a dead spruce came down in the yard, no damage though. Over 200,000 without power in the county.
Bad storms yesterday afternoon: the 20 ft top of a dead spruce came down in the yard, no damage though. Over 200,000 without power in the county.
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